Wednesday, November 14, 2018

Kyrie Excelsior Song Kitty

There is a new star in the heavens. My Kyrie, my little song kitty excelsior's deo is gone. TOO YOUNG and I do not understand why.
She was happy and playful and we'd been playing fetch 2 hours ago.
It's been cold, so we were snuggling, her on her favorite bed, my shoulders. Right on top of me.
All of a sudden without ANY warning, she gently rolled off my shoulder. No seizure, NO WARNING nothing. I started rubbing her belly, because she -being the most extraordinary cat- actually LOVED that. After a few long rubs, I noticed that she was REALLY limp, so I peeked up, and asked her "Hey are you sleeping so soundly that..."
and I saw her give a small gasp, her tail bottled all the way to the end, voided a little.. I gathered her up in a panic... and she left me. I could not have even gotten her to the car for an ER run. She was gone within minutes.
I mean it took longer to write this then it took for God to take her from me.
She didn't have fleas, nary a one. She didn't have worms. She'd recently been to the Vet with a glowing health report..No strings or things to ingest. She'd been eating well, although she liked the salmon kibble better than the chicken and turkey. She'd been drinking well. SHE WAS HEALTHY. SHE WAS MY KITTY GIRL. And now she's gone, and I do not understand why. I do not understand what could POSSIBLY have happened, except .. a heart attack? Something that steals a life without any warning, nary a sniffle, without any damned warning. Looks like a heart attack. So fast. Her eyes are even closed. 

 I thought SURELY I'd have time to get videos of her fetching ANYTHING I threw and bringing it back to do it over and over again... "Go get it !" scamper scamper romp romp toss it up high in the air ! "Bring it back!" and sure enough she would bring it back until she grew tired of the game .. a mere 30 minutes or more.. And how she would press the current fetch toy into my hands and then scent rub it

and the way she'd biscuit with all four legs rather than just her two front paws.. She'd hump her back like a camel and stomp about in a circle just makin' biscuits ...

What am I gonna do.....
I am so so tired of loss and pain and I can't I can't.

"I want more life."

It is going to be such a long long couple of nights... Sleeping alone is hard enough but to have my Kitty Girl stripped from me is going to make Lonely a sledge hammer to my heart.

Just caught myself looking out the window from her favorite perch
I open the door and expect her to say "MOM MOM MOM HI HI Guess what *I* did Here's my mouse"

She had such a huge repertoire of vocalizations, filled full of chirps and *mrrrrowps*  and *meow*meow*meow*s Each so different from the next.

I did sneak in a picture of her little tongue as she napped

and OH ! catnip was her friend...

She was SO gentle and kind to other kitties. First to my Elderly Sunny, whom she snuggled with as Sunny was so frail and old. Sunny and Kyrie and me. Kyrie helped me through Sunny's passing. Sunny helped teach her "the ways of Kitty Domination"...

And then next with Pickles, the wee tiny kitten we rescued out of the deep brush on a backroads next to dead. 

 I found myself walking into the wall
and stopping and going what? what is going on? this is an awful dream. Stop it. wake up...

opening the door to my bedroom and not having her try to slip through my legs

pestering me to "HEY MOM I want you to play with me meow right meow"
stomp all over me to get my attention

Doing the circle right before bed. Window, bedside table, me, food dish, chair, window, me, rinse and repeat until I finally stopped reading and tuned out the lights and it was time for snuggles.

all the stuff that made me want to squeeze her little scamp self into the crate with Pickles.. STOP THAT NONSENSE!

I want that back.
I want all of it back.

I spent the night waking up and hearing her voice. Waking up to the pressure of her paws softening up her "favorite bed" : my body.
I woke up hearing her say "C'Mon let's play I brought you a toy to throw for me" *mrrrrrreow*purr.
I kept lifting the covers waiting for her to come snuggle under the blankets with me.
I kept dangling my fingers at the edge of the blankets tempting her to play "catch and release"
and feeling the crush of my battered heart knowing I won't know these things again in this life.

She came to me as a gift to help heal my heart after another Beloved's passing, my America...Then she helped me through Sunny's passing.

I feel so lost.   ouch. It's hard to breathe in here.

I'll see you at the Rainbow Bridge, my Love., my little Darling.. I'll miss you every day until we abide again. Harley and Sunny will show you all the best places. My heart is just devastated. I will miss you every day. You are always with me. 

Hug your babies. You never know how long you have with them.

Monday, August 27, 2018

On American Ethics

On the day Senator John McCain passed over to the Summerland, I was musing. I think I was hearing him. "This guyhe served his country."

I'm sure y'all know by now how I feel about #KingTrumpery and his #SwampRat coterie. It's not that he ran in the Tea Party GOP -style platform. There are actually more Republican politicians that I have respect for -even if we may disagree- than you would imagine, seeing as how vociferously Liberal I am. I have disliked this man since the middle 80's. He stands for everything I believe is the base weakness of humanity: Greed, racism, white privilege, Manifest Destiny, exploitation, sexism. I despise his lying braggadocio. He has always made my skin crawl and my stomach roil. Just your basic gut reaction, I guess.
But That is not why I believe he needs to be Impeached. Removed from office in the most efficacious manner legally possible. Held Accountable. Along with every single one of his cabinet. It's also not why I believe blatant obstructionists who have also lied in order to preserve their political power to keep this man in office should also be accountable. (No matter what party, no matter what position.)
No. He needs ro be removed, and we all MUST take a lesson so that this can never happen again because MOST of us are basically good people put under too much pressure, and his style of Autocracy demands division and hate between us. He needs to be removed because he feels as if -or "just" acts as if he feels this way - We the People need to be controlled by an Oligarchy. That he and only he, knows best about what is best for us, and that some of "us" are "more equal than others"
That is not the American Way. We have always been a raucous Country, with a difficult and brash and a certain .. "uncivil" style of Governing ourselves. But we've always been an open hearted Country of problem solvers, eager to explore new thoughts and unafraid to address new challenges. That seems to be ... in short supply now-a-days and that is possibly part of what I miss about the America I know. This frightened isolationist racist bully of a Country that we seem to have been embracing ... Man, we're better than this. We ARE.
So what can we do about it?
Well, we can take a little time and a long deep breath before we snap ... and bite and post .. We can be a little kinder to one another... and.....WE CAN VOTE. VOTING MATTERS.
I urge you to Register and Vote in this Midterm.
Even if you think your voice doesn't matter, PLEASE exercise your Constitutional Right to Vote. Do it for your neighbors, who might have less than you who might be different than you but who are still embraced beneath the umbrella of the Declaration of Independence, and the Constitution of the United States. Please do it.
Here's a checklist for what you need:
The time is now. Do not let your voice go silent.. Vote your conscience, even if it disagrees with mine. Just vote YOUR conscience, and VOTE. I have Faith in you all.

Thursday, January 26, 2017

Thoughts on the Wall.

Donnie the Golden Calf loves his Wall. Loves the idea of isolationism and the bigotry which sustains it.
But I got to thinking, ya know, Reagan -whom Donnie so admires, made a big PR plug over dismantling the LAST "big dividing wall"...

Here's the transcript for Reagan's speech:

I wonder how long it will be before a REAL American President or even perhaps a Leader from a Free Country who looks at the mistakes and lies this new Tyrant espouses stands before Donnie's Wall of Disaster and cries out:
"Mr American King, TEAR DOWN THIS WALL"

Transcript of ABC interview


Monday, January 16, 2017

Has Anybody Here Seen My Old Friend Martin?

Today we celebrate the Civil Rights Hero, Dr Martin Luther King Jr.

I remember hearing his speeches on the magical box. I remember the shock and grief when he was assassinated.

Here is his "I Have a Dream" speech. I urge you to listen to it if you have not, and listen to it AGAIN if , like myself, you have before.

The Transcription is HERE:

Rep John Lewis, of whom Herr Trump has infamously said is "all talk no action" gave this moving tribute. He, of course, marched with Dr King Jr as well as marched at Selma and was nearly killed for his beliefs: something the Donald knows nothing about.

This site gives a goodly view of Dr King's life

His Letters from a Birmingham Jail should be required reading for ALL Americans.

Has anyone here seen my old friend Martin? I just looked around and he was gone.  

I miss them every day. I fear we have another long road back to equality before us. I fear we will have to fight this fight yet again. #RESIST #SURVIVE


Monday, December 12, 2016

False Flags, Conspiracies, McCarthyism and the Trump Administration

Let me share with you a bit of history.
What Bolton is doing is called "McCarthyism"
"McCarthy capitalized on national paranoia by proclaiming that communist spies were omnipresent and that he was America's only salvation."
Sound familiar?
“I have joined the political arena so that the powerful can no longer beat up on people that cannot defend themselves,” Donald Trump said in his convention speech. “Nobody knows the system better than me, which is why I alone can fix it.”
Watch these videos.
March 9, 1954 was when Edward R. Murrow exposed Joseph McCarthy the bigoted racist hate monger
McCarthy caused the death of many people by badgering them and smearing their reputations.
What Trump has done throughout his campaign is the same. Ask snide unrelated questions such as "Do you still beat your wife?" and then step back as the accused tries to prove their innocence. Now look at that sentence:
If you say "No" it indicates that you used to beat your wife.
If you say "Yes" it indicates that you still beat your wife.
EITHER WAY you are painted as a wife beater, without the ability to prove your innocence. BECAUSE YOU CAN'T PROVE INNOCENCE.
Examples of Trump's brand of McCarthyism:
“I don't know his father. I met him once. I think he's a lovely guy,” Trump said at a morning-after rally in Cleveland. “All I did is point out the fact that on the cover of the National Enquirer there was a picture of him and crazy Lee Harvey Oswald having breakfast.”…/pants-fire-claim-ted-cruz-neve…/
Trump's 74 question "Transition Questionnaire" for the Dept of Energy is interesting as well.…/climate-change-energy-department-d…
(Please note that Trump's lawyer, Roy Cohn, was McCarthy's aid during the Senate Hearings for Communism purging)…/politi…/donald-trump-roy-cohn.html…
John Bolton - the man Trump has tapped for the #2 spot in the State Department- implies that the CIA is lying, (but the FBI is doing their job well. Because e-mails) and implies that the Obama Administration "could be the ones responsible" (Because "we just don't know")
“It is not at all clear to me, just viewing this from the outside, that this hacking into the [Democratic National Committee] and the [Republican National Committee] was not a false flag operation,” he told Fox News’s Eric Shawn on Sunday.
When pressed about his use of the phrase “false flag” and whether he was accusing an entity in the U.S. of involvement, Bolton said, “We just don’t know.”
“But I believe that intelligence has been politicized in the Obama administration to a very significant degree.”"…/309897-bolton-questions-if-russian-hac…
The GOP has acted in a craven cowardly manner. Senator Margaret Chase Smith of Maine, In 1950, told the Senate she feared “national suicide and the end of everything that we Americans hold dear.” Speaking as a Republican, a woman, a United States Senator, and as an American, Smith charged that the Senate had been “debased to the level of a forum of hate and character assassination sheltered by the shield of congressional immunity” and unable to tolerate “self-criticism and self-appraisal.” She worried “Those of us who shout the loudest about Americanism in making character assassinations are all too frequently those who, by our own words and acts, ignore some of the basic principles of Americanism: The right to criticize; The right to hold unpopular beliefs; The right to protest; The right of independent thought.”
We are waiting for a few good men and women to come to the aid of their Country.
Bolton is not one of them.

Monday, November 28, 2016

Dreams and Memories, Memories and Dreams

Last night I dreamed of Vince & Sam. This song sang in the background... I had forgotten my alarm clock, and as I went back to get fetch it, I turned the corner, and Vinnie was hurrying off to some destination or another.. When I flew into his arms crying, he held me at arm's length and said "What's the matter with you?" I told him I missed him. He said he was busy. I sat and cried. Then Sam came over, with his sly adorable grin, like "I have a secret" He motioned me over, and slipped a tab of LSD on his tongue and told me"I don't want the others to see it, they wouldn't understand" and then he smiled that beautific golden smile of his... I told him about seeing Vinnie and how sad I was, and how much I missed both of them.... Sam told me that Vinnie didn't know he was dead, so he was busy trying to learn the work he had put off while he was living... But that he, Sam, KNEW he was on the other side.. He told me not to be so sad, because he was always at my shoulder, always with me, and...and ... and ...


Wednesday, November 9, 2016

So where do we go? Where do we go from here? The Exit Polls

There's a lot to be learned from this unless we just want to roll up into little sow bug balls and wait for the next round of misogynist, racist, homophobic, frightened isolationist Nationalist stomping and blow torch fiddling comes upon our necks....

Because this is important. If we are going to find a more inclusive way, we need to address these issues.
I found this one pretty telling tho:
37% Hillary
58% Trump
How do we get a handle on that ?
Really a serious confusion how my generation has gotten so crazy conservative.. Guess it's true, "We got ours so screw you" :'( I remember thinking that of my parents' and grandparents' generation. I thought we were enlightened. Apparently not-so-much :'( OUCH how arrogant of me
53% of 45 years and up were Trump supporters. :O
and rethink the whole education thang, that's just not holding true. ONLY in higher education (Postgraduate study) did Hillary reach the majority. It was pretty much half and half from everything below the post graduate level.

Really very interesting. Hey Younger Generation! Those is us who are actually enlightened are depending on y'all to drag us out of the gutter we just Voted ourselves into.


Hate Trumps Love and Decency

Hate Trumps Love and Decency~

well, we did it. 'Murika says Hey the rest of you non-white non-Protestant Christian douche canoes, fuck off. We hate politics sooooooooo much, that we are willing to burning the Motherfucking Country to the ground.

So yeah, let's do this thing.
and to every single person who voted for Trump not because they believed in him but because they "hated the Clinton bitch"?
fuck you
and to every single person who voted for Trump not because they believed in his policies but because they just wanted to say Fuck you to politics?
fuck you
and to every single person who voted for a third party candidate "because no one else was exactly what I wanted and bernie didn't win"
fuck you

because you didn't just say fuck you to politics, you said fuck you to your neighbors and everyone else who isn't straight white male.

(and make sure you 3rd party Voters who DIDN'T vote FOR someone but AGAINST someone, please note how many states that went Trumped where Hillary lost EXACTLY by how much the 3rd party spoilers got)

So just because it'll be interesting to go back in four years and say : "See? I told you so"

Here are some facts about our new President:


Donald Trump: Three decades 4,095 lawsuits

Federal Lawsuits:

What Happens to Civil Lawsuits Filed Against President-Elect Trump?

Scandals: Promises:

For my friends who woke up afraid in this regression of humanity, I'm with you. I pray we survive.

and THIS by the New Yorker:

An American Tragedy. Honest to God, they will be studying this defilement as an example of the worst kind for decades.